October 2022 Flow – Mosquitos & Purpose :

10/5/22
Certain blood types must be more tasty to mosquitos.

Carb consumption (they all become sugar in the body) factors in as well.

I recall playing wiffleball and football in my youth, and I’d be the only kid getting bitten.

Mosquitos being the worst part of childhood in New England compared to SoCal.

must be mosquitos

(SoCal’s worst aspect? Never ending strip mall, no grass, suburban anti-culture, etc.)

Going on hikes with my uncle were almost an exercise in mental toughness due to getting eaten alive.

However, the last time or two I was with my uncle he noticed that wasn’t happening to me.

He recalled how badly they feasted upon me in the past.

Yet, it wasn’t happening now in 2022.

Now, I’m seated outside.

Barely sheltered from the rain, cringing about getting wet on my walk back to the door (unlike me, being he who sits outside regardless) – wearing a hoodie and pants, but barefoot – I had lifted, and outside yet able to still connect to the wifi (scary – it’s EVERYWHERE, but has it’s advantages too lol) I listened to some Wim Hof clips.

I brushed one mosquito off my foot, but after a few minutes of pointedly breathing…no mosquitos.

The science says Wim Hof breathing is changing the alkilinity of your blood, the oxygen coming into you, etc.

I believe in the power of belief over the body, of the power of the mind over the vessel in which it resides.

Viewing yourself as invulnerable, practicing “healing fire”, visualizing a computer rendered image of the same – high tech visualized healing, the two whether spot specific or systematic ; you have more power over your health, strength, recovery, resiliency than most know or admit.

You’re in control. You.

A prayer, victory pose, deep breathing, visualization, and a belief in your fundamental resiliency…you’re set.

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Why are you saying it’s not enough sleep?

Why are you saying it’s tiring?

What is the purpose of that cup of coffee, that “energy” drink?

You think you can’t do more, accomplish more, be busier, with far less free time, yet more energy, and far more work done.

You can accomplish.

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Physical energy follows mental mood more than anything.

A certain mundane, accepted/comfortable, depression is where you do the least.

Other bad headspaces make you full of fire – I got strong as shit lifting at 2am alone on a preworkout honey bun.

Genuinely happy/content (I’ve been there in life while disregarding job circumstance), and you’re at peak personality, most outgoing, most energetic, talking to the most people, sleeping the least, working out the most, savoring the food, loving the connections, etc.

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I feel better with myself, in my day, having worked out.

Weights as often as available, otherwise rack up the calisthenic mini sessions.

Though fairly introverted, I am a storyteller, the medieval bard transplanted into the modern day, it is in my genes – as the little kid content to play all day alone yet once around people he would talk your ear off with the experiences he had – to passionately share them!

I tend to judge whether someone is going to be in my circle or not by whether they stick around to listen to my flowing storytelling tangents or not.

I write (technically type) daily.
It’s a good habit for me.
Allows me to flex the storytelling muscle even if unhealthily alone.

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I should go inside and eat dinner (second? dinner lol),

I’ve been keeping myself in broccoli at all times, sometimes buying cali mix, cauliflower alone, or mushrooms.

Then mixing it myself heavy on the “bric n broc”, I was calling it that, funny how negative I was about making the sides of broccoli a year ago when I first landed in a kitchen, whereas now I’m eating it from both work and the grocery store, food prepping it, cooking it, and eating it at work, buying it, cooking it and eating it a home.

🙂

I was negative about broccoli a year ago, and now I’m eating it daily with half or more of my meals.

There is value in cooking for yourself, washing your dishes immediately, eating more clean than you likely were, “food prep”, combining this all with daily workouts, and your personal challenge…

Be positive in spite of the environment.

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Being lazy and a lack of human connection are the main contributors to bad health in the modern world.

You could go to the grocery store, buy a lb of ground beef and an almost as expensive organic 12oz bag of broccoli (the only frozen broccoli there), have yourself the healthiest of meals, take pride in having cooked it, take pride in having washed the dishes you just dirtied, and have a win having done so.

I tell you, I go to the bank teller instead of the atm, to the grocery store over walmart self checkout, because I desire a world of human connection.

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Just the other day I had a cute 21yo girl tell me “she doesn’t like being alone”, and it’s stuck in my head since.

I’ve had so many college age chicks either spell it out, or allude to it.

Humans are unhealthy because they’re eating only garbage, nothing healthy prepared by their own or loved one’s hands, because they’re working careers, going to school, etc INSTEAD OF FORMING FAMILIES.

People would be healthier living round the whole extended clan on the city block, like my Boston Irish ancestors were only a couple generations back, or on the farm with a marriage that’s never breaking up, 8+ kids, and acres, with the whole extended clan STILL but 30:00 away by horse.

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What’s bugging me more than anything right now is…

I have something to say, and am not sure I’ll get it to those who need hear it!

Persistence & Tenacity
-J