I’ve been regularly dreaming of these situations where I could have alcohol, and even in the dreams I turn it down.
Alcohol is something that simply has no draw to me.
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I used to, til about puberty, regularly have nightmares of cowardice – still having them occasionally after.
Those mostly passed by the time at age 15 I stood up to an 18 year old with all his friends around to protect another.
At about 18 years old I charged a pitbull.
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Woke up with trap soreness, at about 36 hours fasted, energy a bit low.
The day is off, so went back to bed, slept in a couple hours THEN immediately took to typing.
Typing to middle school rap, while meditating on what the next lift will entail.
I’m leaning towards not breaking this fast without another workout.
Coming up on 40 hours, I may go to 48, eat a keto dinner knowing I may be eating carbs at work tomorrow.
Will today be a million session day?
With 12-14 waking hours still the day is young, we’ll see.
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1pm
Okay, about 41 hours fasted – I changed my mind, with how tight some muscles were, and how stiff I felt I decided to break fast, and I included carbs :
•two cheese sticks
•½lb kielbasa
•bowl of tortilla chips
That gone I’m about to cook eggs.
•five eggs
•one potato (home fries)
•10oz reeses
•48oz milk
•bowl of tortilla chips
Food is more enjoyable when fasted, I tasted it, savored it more.
Not a lot of food, especially considering 40 hours without a calorie – the lesson is we in the first world eat far too much.
Alternate day dieting, fasting every other day could be sustainable.
We’ll see what I do alongside moving and lifting weights.
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Moving :
I know that it’s not a career, not enough money, but I’m taking pride in it in the moment.
Eyesight was a bit better while fasted.
While eating the second bowl of chips I thought to myself “why am I still eating”.
Eating carbs is an addiction.
Eating is emotional, habit.
In this case I felt better not eating – learn the balance.
Note : I almost immediately had to shit after this meal, maybe 45:00 later.
It would’ve been a better idea to keep it clean.
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Visiting Cali at 18, too lazy to cook which is exactly what not having learned to cook is – a lot of my meals were microwaving meatballs from costco, eating that with tortilla chips.
I like tortilla chips, always have, choosing them today, and often lately as salty carb alongside meat.
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Lift :
Overhead Squat
2×10 w/ bar
Really let my shoulders stretch, looked for full body mobility – loosened me up real well.
Not doing a big lift today, was tight, but with wintery conditions/snowing – I’m okay with the easy lift.
“As long as you at least feel the movement for a few with the empty bar.”
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I’ve long liked the John Broz “squat every day ” philosophy.
For me I’m going “lift every day”, apparently seeing how far I make it this year, but I’m not sweating it.
If I’m genuinely away from weights that’s okay.
However there is no excuse to not overhead squat my beater bar for a few when at home if I don’t do something bigger.
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The overhead squat is a great loosening movement.
It’s not a good idea to sit around when you’re sore.
Movement, generally done light through the full range of motion, makes you limber again.
The overhead squat is the weight trainer’s yoga.
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As I shoveled snow and after showered I was checking in.
Yesterday’s 50/20s were great, my glutes and traps have obviously worked – primed, which is good for strength though sore, as have my forearms, with hamstrings and biceps a bit tight.
While shoveling I had an emotion hit me, frankly I could’ve cried – just this overwhelming thought of “I’m approaching 30 and have accomplished nothing – no wife, no kids, working a job that’s going nowhere (though moving feels much better to my soul than line cooking), and never went anywhere athletically”.
I want wind, for health, and for performance.
In the moment to be able to run it on job sites – I hate being the slowest on the crew running boxes, want my hands on every heavy item, etc.
The answer to this is bleachers on the weekend, lifting every day – off work meaningfully, on work minimally.
Daily activity.
Walks would be easy to integrate, while a
kettlebell is a purchase that would get me outside for lots of volume.
But, my psyche goes to this place, this same one repeatedly…
“Dude, why aren’t you in a gym.”
As I showered I thought of all the pulling volume I didn’t do during the covid lockdowns.
Hindsight 20/20
I had 500lbs in weight available, I could’ve been overhead squatting, power snatching, power cleaning, pressing, and deadlifting like a madman.
You could make an entire transformation, in any direction, with effort at the above.
Going to the powerlifting gym or not is right on the line for me, I’m being indecisive.
If I took another dead end job, one less physical, not a kitchen, more set hours and had to pass by it daily…
A cashier would be a million daily interactions, and be nothing on recovery.
What did all the world’s strongest man competitors do for a living?
How many times have I been told that I should do strongman?
And dude…
How passionate do I get when speaking about wrestling, which I haven’t done since 2011?
It’s hell to live in ; the “glory days”, in television’s version of reality, etc ie not making your life a story worthy of telling.
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It horrifies me to see the lifestyles and where they end up, the guy’s miserable after a lifetime of dead end job.
The negativity of everyone just feeding into each other – I find my mentality works better for me then they theirs.
Even if it’s a mundane task at a dead end job, there’s something to smile about and be thankful for.
The moving company forces me out of bed, making me move around in the fresh morning air.
We all need fresh morning air and movement in our lives.
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Ahh, what was going negative was made positive.
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I smile knowing day by day, week by week, soon month by month my beard shall grow longer.
Money?
Money ; why couldn’t I train people outdoors with naught but a barbell?
Has anyone done it?
I could be the first.
Then come up with some cutesy name like “CrossFit” and term like “WOD” for what entails overhead squatting, power snatching, power cleaning, pressing, and deadlifting, generally for reps, with little warm up, and medium to heavy weights like a madman – start with one person or a small group, and eventually have AMRAPS (hey another term) televised on espn.
Note To Self :
Dude, take the above seriously.
Make it. No reason you couldn’t make it with a barbell and any space.
YOU CAN MAKE IT WITH YOUR BARBELL AND ANY SPACE
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wes watson – gate money and a vision
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Nearing bedtime, yesterday without food, today with what’s listed above and maybe a small meal in the next hour or two – I look a bit less fat.
This could work for me, mixing aggressive intermittent fasting with aggressive lifting.
Tomorrow after work, or Saturday, and bearing good footing – how many times can I power clean 165lbs?
Sounds like the extra clean work I need for my pressing.
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•two cheese sticks
•two chicken quesadillas (or whatever to call them – spicy tortilla shells, breaded chicken, mexican mix cheese melted)
•12oz cranberry juice
•32oz milk
•candy bar
•handful peanuts
You know, frequent feedings are as simple as a few bites of meat or cheese.
It’s ten seconds to eat a cheese stick.
This meal sat better than the first.
Two meals ten hours apart, and still not particularly high calorie on the day.
Tomorrow I move a, well I know the apartment complex – no elevator, it may be fun getting any couches out.
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Laying to bed my abs are sore.
As they’ve been all day.
I attribute it to the 50/20 snatches yesterday.
They’re not used to that many reps overhead, nor snatches – as for the past 15 months I’d mostly just pressed.
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Persistence & Tenacity