Phone Outside The Bedroom = Porn Free

Where The Cellphone Sleeps :

Overnighting my phone on the kitchen table was a good habit I’ve recently resurrected.

When I went from October 2019 to January 2022 without watching porn it was a measure I instituted, daily, from the 2020 lockdowns when those urges born of loneliness were there – a practice I held to for about a year and a half – a practice that made the vice impossible to immediately hit (watch), as the paraphernalia (cellphone aka witchbrick) was not readily within arms reach.

I use drug terminology in relation to porn purposefully.

Holding to a positive regimen is easier when you set things up in a way that the temptations are more difficult to access.

As often as possible, instead of testing your willpower, simply be away from the temptation.

Penance :

This is the 6th year in which I’ve felt “if I cave, I shave”, and held rigidly to the sentiment.

It is a discipline challenge I’ve held to without exception.

Over time it varied, nay, gained stipulations.

It changed from shaving after watching porn to shaving 24+ hours after watching porn to signify a new day, a new start, a new period – A NEW ERA

At some point “with a fresh new razor” was too added.

You’d find me shaving at odd times throughout the day, basically asap, whether this was when the 24+ hours later was yet implemented or not, because I want my awesome thick red beard back AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

Another stipulation, one I have not kept to without exception…

30 days, you go 30 days of discipline, of penance, without shaping, trimming, neatening, straightening up, or establishing lines.

I know where to establish the beard line. I’ve been shaving since 7th grade, growing a beard since 11th. I could establish that line as early as day 3 on the undergrowth…

But the discipline, the penance is to go 30 days…

So I’m going 30 days, not touching it once…

And this time another stipulation has been added –

nor am I buzzing my scalp in this period.

It’s gonna look real bummy before I look real good, and I may end up going 40 for the biblical connotation vs the 30 I initially expected.

What is another 10 days?

Persistence & Tenacity