On this :
I commented :
“Existing? That’s bullshit.
You must LIVE!
Half assed? Cowards go half assed. You’re either all in or you’re not, all in or all out, no middle grounds!
Listless means you’re in a state of negative surrender, that you’re not out there where you need to be… conquering.
Don’t just go about your day!
Don’t just go along!
You’re not gonna sleep right without a day run right. I don’t find workouts, physical training to be enough here. Sleep earned for me requires more than just massive training volume.
I don’t think most realize the inner turmoil I’ve felt at my own perception of not being all in, not going all out, and not making it happen.
I’ve been feeling it off and on since childhood.
How much I tear/I’ve torn myself apart for letting the world stand in my way as I have the self honesty to admit anything other than achievement to be what it is in the largest majority of cases – a case of personal weakness and surrender.
I believe in human potential, so the way I see it there’s a 99.999% chance of there being a way for you to get your personally required achievements.
Failure in the end has the potential to be naught but statistical anomaly.
Some of the “small” things (in other’s eyes) I do –
•daily pushups
•no porn for life – never watching again (this is where this comment came from, way more of a personal perception of public accountability posted to a bigger channel than my own web presence)
•never drinking, never drugs, never have, never will
I couldn’t slip up on these things and look myself in the mirror.
The me that isn’t me wanting to partake or not to (depends on what it is) so bad, and the me that is me overriding that and holding to daily ritual.
On my face, on the floor so many times getting my daily PT in. Regardless.
Failing in the physical plane (money) is one thing, but spiritual failures? No. I’m NOT slipping there.
Daily pushups, no porn, no drink/drugs, I’ve made these things spiritual to myself.
My present financial situation is bad enough. I’m not going to choose to make life worse by self harming on the spiritual plane. That’s unacceptable behavior.
This video spoke to me, I was comfortable existing as a financial failure, someone who’s become used to just training regularly, but not dieting hard, nor going and making MY WAY to earn enough money reality.
@Wes Watson – Thank You!
And though not from this one, the quote/sound bite “create the man you admire so you can give him away” has been helping me (and by extension at least one college aged kid on the gym floor) in my day to day. You’re doing more good work than you know.
@ Anyone reading : I hope posting this helps you.
-J”