Month: May 2022

5/20/22 – “Gym” Dream – Regularly Two Handed Slam Dunking From A Standstill

5/20/22
I woke, having slept hard and fast, a few hours before my alarm even, from a nightmare this morning – an all in all bad dream, but yet in it…I could easily dunk a basketball.

Two handed from a standstill no less.

And I did it both rep after rep, and at any given time.

It was burnt in, walk around ability.
I loved it.

So maybe it wasn’t that bad a dream after all.

I tell my coworker of this dream, “I don’t even come near the rim in my dreams” he says to me all sad like.

I laughed.

Often I view the things I do in dreams as the universe showing me possibility.

There is no reason that I stay forever ground bound.

I am reasonably explosive at sprints and broad jumps, though naturally better on the horizontal than the vertical plane for whatever reason.

I could learn to dunk, and I feel that a two handed slam from a standstill alongside a ≤6:00 mile, and 20+ (preferably 30+) pullups is an attainable all around very athletic me.

I haven’t stepped on a scale since the end of 2019.

I do not care the scale.

This too means I am free to drop unnecessary bodyweight.

Though able to recall, in my early 20s, calculating that my lbm alone put me outside of military weight regs I am free to drop bw.

I’ll get some more training in.

Note :

high rep overhead squats did give me vertical ability when I did them daily

May 2022 – Clarified – Write/Shrug/Post & Reality :

Write it.
Shrug. “Fuck it.”
Post.

No other steps.

I had a revelation just days ago.

I feel better having a million mini sessions every day.

I like, not just training, but how I feel from training.

At the very least I get a momentary respite from inner pain, while on the opposing end of the spectrum I go back to the 5 year old HIGH ENERGY, OUTGOING, ZERO INHIBITIONS version of me.

The natural state of Man!

Do whatever amount of burpees gets you there ; they will get you there.

Training always ends up a mental positive with the physical benefits as a bonus.

You keep training, and you keep racking up gains, but the gym – whether it’s a boxing gym, wrestling room, a barbell in a garage/basement/shed/yard, a commercial gym membership, lunges & pullups at the park, or pushups in the kitchen the benefit is it’s mentally saving a young man.

THE BENEFIT IS IT’S MENTALLY SAVING A YOUNG MAN!

My writing’s word count has gone up. I’m posting more.

I realized – the world, how I feel interacting with it, is my choice in my mind.

My choice. My mind. My control.
To act otherwise is a bald faced lie, and to choose weakness.

A man is as strong as he choose be.

That clarified.

Persistence & Tenacity

5/16/22 – “Pushup Poetry” :

5/16/22 955pm
Oakhurst coffee milk, going full bro – straight from the jug I take a swig of maybe 8oz.

Doing my pushups for the day, 110 is the number of reps in this set with which I play.

The range is not full, touching neither floor nor lockout – a smidge further than the woody woodpecker hence sayeth the internet nerd “ZERO REPS NO LOCKOUT”

I hear such from many, these are useless or something else – such as I am just cheating though it is I who by riding on the gains train it is them whom I, I am beating…

I am not greedy, come on in, join in the fun – pushups are a treasure…
THERE ARE REPS TO BE DONE!

grabbing the music link I accidentally deleted the poem, immediately rewriting a very similar second take on the thing – there was no internet nerd nor gains train mentioned in the first

I remember the word count – this take came out about 30 longer with similar pacing

Song – Ladies & Gentlemen – Saliva

Phone Outside The Bedroom = Porn Free

Where The Cellphone Sleeps :

Overnighting my phone on the kitchen table was a good habit I’ve recently resurrected.

When I went from October 2019 to January 2022 without watching porn it was a measure I instituted, daily, from the 2020 lockdowns when those urges born of loneliness were there – a practice I held to for about a year and a half – a practice that made the vice impossible to immediately hit (watch), as the paraphernalia (cellphone aka witchbrick) was not readily within arms reach.

I use drug terminology in relation to porn purposefully.

Holding to a positive regimen is easier when you set things up in a way that the temptations are more difficult to access.

As often as possible, instead of testing your willpower, simply be away from the temptation.

Penance :

This is the 6th year in which I’ve felt “if I cave, I shave”, and held rigidly to the sentiment.

It is a discipline challenge I’ve held to without exception.

Over time it varied, nay, gained stipulations.

It changed from shaving after watching porn to shaving 24+ hours after watching porn to signify a new day, a new start, a new period – A NEW ERA

At some point “with a fresh new razor” was too added.

You’d find me shaving at odd times throughout the day, basically asap, whether this was when the 24+ hours later was yet implemented or not, because I want my awesome thick red beard back AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

Another stipulation, one I have not kept to without exception…

30 days, you go 30 days of discipline, of penance, without shaping, trimming, neatening, straightening up, or establishing lines.

I know where to establish the beard line. I’ve been shaving since 7th grade, growing a beard since 11th. I could establish that line as early as day 3 on the undergrowth…

But the discipline, the penance is to go 30 days…

So I’m going 30 days, not touching it once…

And this time another stipulation has been added –

nor am I buzzing my scalp in this period.

It’s gonna look real bummy before I look real good, and I may end up going 40 for the biblical connotation vs the 30 I initially expected.

What is another 10 days?

Persistence & Tenacity

May 2022 Flow – “The Value Of Woody Woodpeckers” :

meep meep

“Woody Woodpeckers” – the name my buddy bestowed upon the extremely short range of motion pushups he’s witnessed me do to infinity

Now see, I get shit from many for the woody woodpeckers, I do them anyway – they’re a part of me, my daily pushups, and though “cheating” according to many, as if in a bad way, they are in a way “cheating” in the best of ways…

I get a serious pump in my pressing muscles, generally two to three times a day – all the mini sessions of pushups which keep me sane via feeding the high frequency beast, that animal locked away inside me.

My bench increases always and forever since for always and forever I’ve been doing daily pushups.

You push to where you’re starting to gas, a quick 100 clip, banged out, and that 100th rep YOU HAVE TO LOCK OUT – this rep is the strength effect, everything else the pump, the preparty, the base building, the I’m about to make it worthwhile AND DOING SO

You do millions of sets of 30, of 50, over the years, and the body gets used to sustained effort while building power.

The 100, earn it earn it earn it, the 100th a sweat taste on the daily – 10 supersets of 100 jump rope and 100 woody woodpeckers – freakish ability ;

built anywhere (in the public eye)

A million reps and you can put people on your back.

A million reps and you don’t EVER need to warm up the upper body – it’s there, ready to go, maintained in the state of readiness.

I amp up via pushups.
AMP UP! AMPED UP! Arroo!

The kitchen floor sacred space – where I get most done.

The beauty in how it travels, the perfect logistics, the kitchen, the bathroom, rest stop, beach…hotel, motel, who needs a gym – use it when you’ve got it AT THE HOLIDAY INN! lol

The “woody woodpecker” always with me.

Persistence & Tenacity

5/4/22 Flows :

Flow 1 :

Earlier in the day I was
referring to the job as working in hades, it’s probably 95° on the line and the smell sticks to you.

I’d spent half the day desiring to call out for no reason other than “I don’t want to go there anymore” – psychological “life is hard boohoo”.

By the time I was free to call a manager, it was way too close to shift start – I’d consider it unfair to do so, so I went to work, reframing it mentally to “at the very least it’ll get my mind off of some negative stuff in my personal life”.

I went in with the attitude that nothing there is gonna bother me, that I’ll have a smile on my face/enjoy the shift regardless since it’s gonna allow me to refocus

And that’s what happened!
I had a fun time with this shift.

After Work :
Upon parking – I did my mace swings in the rain no less, weather really just doesn’t affect me anymore….

Others can stay inside.
I won’t.

The awesome in human history didn’t come from letting the weather dictate what you do or don’t.

Daily PT? It’s [insert weather} out?
Fuck yeah, let’s get it!

Pushups in the kitchen.
Shower up.
I still smell slightly of kitchen, maybe it’s in the stubble on my face, facial hair holding in the food proteins that saturate the air there. Shrugs.

No matter. I swung my mace, I did 200 pushups thus far on the day.

I’ll sit down to a nice employee comped meal in a minute.

My sternum is cramping. The mace swings are a high activation pullover, amongst other things.

I’d benched outside yesterday. I have a bit of sunburn from it, but I got vitamin d, and look massive.

I’m a firm believer in training, always training, when it comes down to it…

I’ve got a full body workout of mace swings with a tree branch (free – done most days), pushups (also free – done every day), and deep knee bends (and also free – done every day right now) that I hit repeatedly with heart and the buy in.

You can’t stop me…
You want to be jacked too?

DO SO

Persistence & Tenacity

Flow 2 :

It’s a rickety setup – PERFECT!

Go online, I recall photos of a bunch of jacked africans training with pipe, railroad wheels, and concrete in what appears a dirt floor courtyard.

Someone somewhere is doing more with less. Be that someone. Do it.

People really look for every minute detail as excuse instead of :

•what you have
•where you are
•with effort

It cracks me up – the dudes who say they can’t gain weight. I force fed 7000-8000 calories a day for the entire summer at 17.

5000 calories a day, the near universal big/bulking #, just is normal after such an experience.

I swung a sledgehammer, and skipped rope daily.

I did not lift anywhere near enough, and did not sprint as I should’ve.

This caused me to enter senior year of high school with fatceps…but at 253 whereas a year prior I had seriously doubted my ability to hit/break 200lbs.

(disregarding that I entered high school a fat 212, which was oblivious to me at the time on the ability to gain weight note, before seeing sub 170 on a meet scale as a sophomore…breaking 200lbs actually happened lickety split – from 195 to 215 in ten days upon junior year wrestling season ending, I growth spurted in the season, going force fed to 197 before, down to 185 by the first meet so as to not have to cut for 189, and back up to 195 by mid season managing to be starving – not eating, high activity, and yet gaining weight…then exploded the second the season ended mostly off a lunch biscuit tossed to me at lunch each day from a buddy who didn’t want it – a massive number of the school lunches came with a biscuit for some reason, many went in the trash, my buddy tossed me the one off his tray – I was thankful, apparently it was perfect muscle building macros and calories – one chick just about pissed herself upon seeing me “ten pounds in a weekend!?!?!?!”, my buddy, whom gave me the biscuits, had used to wrestle, understood, and corrected her “eight pounds in four days – two pounds a day”, he and I had just been discussing it.)

I’m looking forward to benching feet in the air, straight legs, 50+ x 225+.

High reps, especially on upper body, work really well for me.

And that’s an attainable goal.

Train for years. No ability is unattainable by then.

It’s no more than years of commitment to training.

Persistence & Tenacity